its been a bad day...

so today has just been one of those day when i dont want to get out of bed...somedays are pretty good and then there are days like today...i know we're on the downslide of this deployment but i just really hate waiting...there are so many issues that need to be fixed and not sure where exactly to start to fix them...i love my husband so much it hurts when we're apart and he says the same thing...i just wonder how we got here...between deployments and field problems i think our marriage is just been pushed off to the side...i just wish things were an easy fix..somedays i wonder exactly what i'm doing and is it worth all the hell that i've gone through...just need a sign or something to show me what is the right path to walk down...i cant think most days..i just go through the routine of living...get up...make sure the kids are taking care of...the animals..the housework...work...not even living more along the lines of functioning...not sure what the right answers are anymore...

The life...

Ok...so i'll started this site awhile ago..try over a year and never wrote much on it..mainly because i'm a myspace junkie...

but i'll start out with the about me section...am a wife and a mother first...i love my husband and children more then life its self...my husband john and i have been married almost 5yrs now..and in the 5yrs we've gone through hell and back..and once again back to hell...john is currently deployed to iraq for yet another deployment which has taken its toll on all of us...but that in itself is another story...i was raised in hinesville ga...my dad was retired army turned social studies teacher...it sucked since he taught at my high school...never could get into any trouble without him knowing...my mom is a dre for their church..basically my family is part of the "catholic mafia"..my dad was the "don"...i love my life..i wouldnt trade it for anything..i firmly believe that everything happens for a reason...and try to find the good in everything..even at times it sucks!

i am the mother to two teenagers~

robert~17...now robert is the typical teenage male..he thinks that the world revolves around him and that every girl in his school thinks he's hot..but he's a good kid...he is our comedian in the house whenever he can crack a joke he will to make everyone laugh...now if we can just make sure he graduates we're doing awesome..since he doesnt like school to much....but he's our social butterfly and loves to be the center of attention

kristi~15...now kristi is our exact opposite of robert...kristi would rather hide out in her room..with her laptop and look up random useless facts...she is our brilliant soon-to-be lawyer...she is not the most outgoing of kids..she has a few friends and she's pretty happy with them..but she does have a bit of her mom in her and can be pretty mouthy and sarcastic and we're working on her to learn when and when not to use those faults...

then there are the critters...

we have a cat~pharoah who sleeps all day..demands his canned kitty food...and just thinks that we're here for his needs...typical cat...

we have a black lab~tinkerbell..tinky is a hyper dog..she honestly cant sit still for more then 5 seconds esp if there's someone anywhere near her to pay attention to her...she's shaped like courage the cowardly dog...little head..big body and little stubby legs...but we love her to death

then there's our great dane~marley...she's our rescue dane..when we first got marley a year ago..she was 95lbs and was deathly afraid of everyone...she's come along way in the year..she's still afraid of loud noises and if you raise your voice she shakes..but she's weighing at a hefty 125lb and thinks she's a 5lb lapdog...

and thats it about my life...for now that is....